Today was not one of them days.

I knew I would think of you today. I knew I would miss you today. I knew today we would all want nothing more than to have you with us.

It was Mya's last day at nursery today. She loved when you used to take her and pick her up. After you left, all she wanted was for you to be the one to take her. Picking her up, my heart skipped a beat and my eyes dropped a tear 😭 you should have been there with us. You should have been waiting at the gates, arms open waiting with a smile on your face. I am so sorry you missed that Mummy.

Georgie has finally left primary school. You were there to take her and collect her from nursery and majority of the way through her primary school. You not being there today to join us clapping her out, seeing her leavers shirt. Joing us at the park to celebrate her. You should have been there. You deserved to be there. 

I knew that in whatever way you could you would be there watching them through this, guideing them. I wore your top as a little extra so they knew you were with us to ❤❤

This is one of the 1st of many, major chapters you wont be with us to see. I wish that wasnt the case and I know you are never far away 😭

We will carry you with us for all of time, you may not be here to enter these times with us but tou best believe we will always find a way to hold you tight and bring you along for the ride.

I miss you Mummy. I Love you Mumma 💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞